Breakdowns and Ultrasounds

Well, this last week have been somewhat crazy. Cassi has literally flipped out several times. For 2-3 days I could say nothing right, her claws were out and I got very irritable from getting yelled at constantly, which compounding the issues. I was to the point of losing it, and actually was thinking about taking a weekend off from her. You know, for sanity's sake. But she eventually calmed down and we were both sorry, though she cried a lot. I know some of this is the hormones from the pregnancy, but she's always had emotional issues. Her therapists did come and talk with her, which I think helped. She suggested a therapy pet. Yeah, right . . . Not happening with her Grandma in Grandma's house. I did try to feel her out about the idea and she got feisty mean. But we still went to the animal shelter nearby twice. We had a great time looking at cats and dogs. It was hard to listen to their crying though. The cats were all awesome and I think several of them would have made good therapy pets. But the dogs were harder to find ones with the requirements we needed, but we actually got to play with three separate dogs. One was too jumpy, but so cute. Another that wouldn't stop when he was running and run right into people. But the best, and I am not really into Boxers, was a Boxer! He was awesome! If I could have been able to take a dog home, it would have been perfect! He gets excited and all, but he doesn't really jump crazily. He tuckers out in about 5-10 minutes and then becomes nice and calm. He is house broken. Likes kids and has some obedience training. I felt bad we couldn't take him home since we had found the perfect dog. :-( But we also got good news! One of the cats that we had fallen in love with too - Henry - he got ADOPTED!!! :-) That was such awesome news! But Cassi took the fact that we couldn't take Stone (the Boxer) home in stride.

Cassi also had a third ultrasound done on February 26th. It was miraculous! Her Big Sister, Lenore, came with us and we got to see the baby move!! Her due date was confirmed with this ultrasound so we know that the baby is due September 24, 2013. Of course, we don't expect to have the baby on that date exactly, but it will be around there for sure! Lenore was sweet and got us a smoothie each - strawberry banana. But here is the ultrasounds:

But then she had another breakdown over her uncle telling her not to cuss because she's just 15 years old. Not that he can say much for himself in that department, but he is right that she shouldn't cuss so much. But she literally flipped out. I couldn't believe how crazy she got!! After he left (I was taking him to the trolley) I couldn't believe how far out of proportion this had blown. The she told Jason she was cutting and I kind of flipped out. I called her once I got in the driveway and told her to come out to the care was because I was going to take her to the hospital for an evaluation. She told me it was only a little cut like a scratch and that's all. So I told her, as much as I didn't want this, that she needed to start taking the medication. So she started that Friday night. I think in the long run this will be a good thing. Hopefully it won't take too long to start kicking in. But we'll see!

March 1st and 2nd I did A LOT of shopping! There seemed to be tons of things to get and pay - though not for the baby yet. Next month or May I'm going to get the bedding we want. But there were a lot of other things - bus passes, an outfit for me (I couldn't resisted this top and I wanted a pair of jeans finally!), had to get cat food, treats, rabbit treats, toilet paper, nose spray . . . all the usual stuff. But Cassi and Jordan needed shampoo and conditioner, Cassi needed some blackhead removers or some pads for acne. I did get a couple of movies. I also got a lot of Easter and St Patty's Day stuff and candy - stuff to go into the box for my soldier. What's cool is that he finally sent me a letter! I was so thrilled to get it since I hadn't heard from him. He also gave me his email address so I turned around and wrote him immediately! One day later, I got a response! He also cleared up the spelling of his last name. LOL! They signed him up misspelling it! It was nice to hear that he enjoyed the fact that as a family we are so close - I have shared a lot about what goes on around here. He got lots of letters over Christmas! Lots of goodies too! There is so much stuff I got and plus pay rent and put fuel money away - not that there was much left.

But so far we're doing okay at the moment. Cassi got to go out if the house last night and spend the night with a friend, which I think she desperately needed, and tomorrow she goes to school for the last two periods of the day. She might even go for lunch! To be honest, I'm lucky she does THAT at the moment. If I can, things will be different after she has the baby. Until then I look forward to summer when school is out.

Guess that's it for this edition. Another will follow soon!

New Ultrasounds and Ups and Downs

Well, Cassi got home from her Winter Bible Camp and she had a great time, but boy was she sore from all the hiking. Over the weekend I got to just chill out for the most part. Monday I managed to get several letters done that I had put off for a few weeks. I was happy about that, but Cassi has had too emotional breakdowns this week. A lot of it is pressure about the future. But I just try to comfort her, but if that doesn't work I just let her cry it out and then we talk about it. 

Tuesday she FINALLY had her first OB appointment. This time the insurance was ready and so she got weighed. She lost another 2-3 pounds. But I think the nausea is going down so hopefully she'll stop losing weight. Not that I want her to gain a lot of weight during the pregnancy, but losing weight isn't good! But I think she's feeling better and maybe eating a little more than she was. Let's hope!

Anyway, at the OB appointment they did an ultrasound and now the Due Date has been changed to September 24th. It's so cool! In the ultrasound you can see the little hands and feet!

I can't help feeling joy at the life that's just beginning! But I hate how it's stressing Cassi out but she won't even consider adoption and I'm going to help her as much as I can! I think it will turn out okay. I have faith that God wouldn't have her get pregnant just to lose the baby. Plus she loves Aaron/Erin with all her heart already. I think things will turn better for her when she feels her little one move inside her. There is no feeling like it!

Yesterday we had a meeting at the school to see about placing her in a school program for pregnant teens. Unfortunately the woman was busy and simply forgot, but we did wait an hour for her. However tomorrow she is supposed to be therefor sure so that's the new meeting date. That evening we had dinner with Jason and Susan. Jason made a joke about Cassi an though she didn't get really bent out of share when we were there it was just one more thing on her plate and she lost it for awhile on the way home and at home. She was so sure that her life was over. That she would never be a kid again - that's kind of true, but it's not like she'll never had fun again so I let her cry it out because nothing I said was going to help. We all get to those times where all we can see is the darkness. Anyway, Jordan gave her a hug and then he got her to smile and laugh. 

Today when she got up she told me that her life wasn't over. That adults had fun too, just not as often, so she was ready to grow up. There will probably be a few more flip flops before all is said and done, but I'm glad she can see that at the moment.

So now, we eat our chili and cornbread for dinner, relax and go to sleep for tomorrow to start!

Mood Swings, Baby Bump and More!

Well, today I woke up tired like I have woke up for several days now. But right now I'm awake and ready to do the things I need to do and hopefully will get most done, thanks to some coffee I had, but I can't drink it all the time without suffering the consequences. 

Originally I was going to write some letters until I had to take Jordan to therapy, but Cassi had lost an ear plug and my idea was to go up to Walmart, buy some orange juice for Cassi for the vitamin C and folic acid. I also got her a single serving of Tru Moo for the Calcium. When I went to check out, I was hoping to pull off about $8 so I could take her to get plugs for her ears so the holes wouldn't close up, but they only let you pull money in increments of $20. I don't have that much on my cash card. I was upset about it, but there was nothing I could do. So I was going to go to Vons because I KNEW they would take off only what I needed, but we ran out of time because I have to get Jordan to therapy. We were both unhappy about it. I told her she should clean up her room and that maybe she would find it. Talk about snappy. I guess we both started snapping at each other. She did catch me in something I do. I check my phone messages while at stop lights and she got WAY upset over that! LOL! I guess I know I shouldn't be doing it, but at a stop light is it really that bad when I am always keeping an eye out for the light to change? Well, maybe I shouldn't do that, but I do. 

But we did talk about other things. I asked her if she was drinking enough water and stuff like that. How many prenatal vitamins she had left. Turns out only a few so it's a good thing she had her OB appointment on Friday! Then we also talked about the fact that she would start showing soon. She told me she had. Someone already saw a little bit of a baby bump. :-D That and I asked her what she wanted to do about clothes for her pregnancy and she said she wanted to wear dresses!! She thought they would be better and I have to agree since she's going to be pregnant during the summer. I haven't bought anything for the baby, but it's my weird, "I don't want to jinx it" thing. I know she worries about losing the baby. She has mentioned it before, but she prays about it, I think. She already loves her little baby so much!! And for me, it's a great thing to see. For the most part she is growing up and taking good care of herself and the baby. I just wish she'd clean up her room! LOL!